I’m reading this and I’m laughing at myself, I sound so desperate and confused…but then I look at myself and that’s how I feel for real! I am starting my fifth year in college and I’m honestly over it, all my friends whom I hung out with graduated in June and we were like family here because most of them were from other countries of Europe and we basically lived together. Now I am questioning myself if making new friends is a good idea or should I just be a loner and focus on the blog and my Greek skills. Before I got here earlier this month, I had so many plans on how to keep myself occupied with admirable activities and now, it’s just BLAH…
I’m trying not to stress out though, I’m sure this is just a phase and my will to do great things will come again but right now I’m just desperate. When I think about it, this pressure has a lot to do with the fact that this is my last year in college and in about 9 months I will be thrown into the REAL WORLD (scary shit). I don’t feel ready, whatsoever, so I am trying to find ways that will prepare me for things such as: getting a job, making money and having much more responsibilities. It is almost impossible to get any of that experience in Greece, the country is doing so bad economically and it has affected the social life as well. Especially, coming to Thessaloniki after Manhattan can be so depressing, I feel like I have traveled back in time…nothing works here…meeeerp
Anyways, I don’t like being a downer; especially wouldn’t want that to reflect on the readers but I know you guys can relate at some point because there are always certain times in life when you are questioning everything, even yourself or when you are so confused and try to find meanings out of little things which can lead you to false assumptions. It’s okay not to be okay; and as cliché as it sounds everyone goes through ups and downs but it is important not to let that take the best of you and make decisions that maybe you’ll regret after a while. At times when you are feeling down, being happy again should be your only goal…and after that you can move on with the rest. When your thoughts are clear, your purposes are also clear and this will reflect in anything you are trying to achieve.
My way of trying to get it together again was to go out downtown as you can see in the pictures and wander around the city, finding beauty in little things. I also bought my tickets for Reworks Music Festival, which starts today until Sunday and I am so excited for it. Last year the event was sold out so I couldn’t find any tickets at the door either and ended up not attending which was a real bummer at that time. I feel more relieved now that I have the tickets and I’m sure that seeing Nina Kravitz and all the line up live will make me happy again. I’ll give you guys updates after the festival…until then, stay strong and stay happy ☺
Zara Leather Leggings
Philip Plein Shirt
Isabel Marant for H&M shoes
Pull&Bear Bag from a few years ago